Hey everyone. It’s a new month – the end of the year essentially. It’s December. how are you feeling?
If you are in Nigeria – you are probably fed up with hearing about Toke’s book “Becoming” – which should have been titled “Maje and others” in my opinion. Yes I have read the book and it fell really short of my expectations ( why I had any in the first place beats me) and in my opinion she has not utilised her voice properly. I believe she has a lot of healing to do and a lot of self discovery to also do along with it…based on all the contradictory messages she delivers. Many times we cannot separate the message from the messenger – so for me the book was not it.
Moving along Christmas is in 23 days and honestly I am not feeling it at all this year. I realise I don’t even have a Christmas tree, no Christmas pictures in the works for the babies – nothing. Maybe I will wrap them packs of diapers and put under my MILs tree. And wrap like 10 cans of formula for my husband😂. This is the mischief maker in me talking.
I was hoping by a miracle I would have been able to do 25 days of Christmas giveaway on the blog, but it is not seeming so…alas the year hit me a lot harder financially than I originally anticipated…maybe things will improve in January. All in all i am grateful even though my existence seems centered on cleaning poop, feeding and ooohing at my teething baby girls. I have been up since 3.30am and they have refused to sleep longer than 30 minute blocks. The reward for parenting twins must be in heaven because despite having help I feel overstretched.
What do I want for Christmas? Just one full nite of drug (tylenol pm) induced sleep in a luxurious bed and then be served breakfast in bed when I wake up the next morning and like a rice sack full of candy. I can’t think of anything else. As stiff as things seem, I think I have most things I need in my life.
PS: the thought of shutting down this site keeps creeping up more and more. I know folks have asked me not to, but many days I am running on fumes and from an idea standpoint I get writers block- as if I was ever a writer to begin with. I also struggle with the balance of bringing real life issues vs me me me stories….I don’t want to have this site centered on my life for obvious reasons, I don’t consider myself a ligestyle blogger and would rather not make my life and open book like that.
How about you? what are your current thoughts as we close out the year?